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~~ It's Not The End ...

Sat, 17 May 2008 22:22:58 GMT

Things have been falling apart. Something really strange is going on and I don't know why. I have everything I'm supposed to have, but there's this emptiness in my heart, that place for a special someone that's now pain instead of joy. I want to fix it, but it won't work. Sometimes, we need space to gain our thoughts and get over painful things we're going through, but sometimes that space becomes pain. As much as I'm hurting, and as much as I'm getting rejected, I'm gonna keep on fighting, because I know that our friendship is not worth this misunderstanding. I used to care too much about my friends, but bad things kept happening, so I stopped. I stopped caring. I was too hurt and I didn't have the strength to keep on going, but this one person, stood by my side, helped me up and was there for me whenever I needed. This one person that used to be filling this emptiness, this one person who I wasn't able to stop caring about, was there. I can't forgive myself for the many ways I hurt this person with, and I don't even expect to be forgiven, but I only seek for one thing ... another chance.
I love you, and I don't want this to be the end, so don't end it...

With all my heart...
To Someone Special

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 01:21:49 GMT

Today was seriously a magical day... I know it sounds fishy, but it just was :\ It began when i went to the gym at 10am with my friend vincent, where we broke nearly half of the machines =P then, we went swimming for an hour or two. Afterwards, I took a shower, went back home, got ready and went with Layanne at 2:30pm to bring Louis and meet Shermine at the church, where a Pasteur with two exorcists were curing people and letting them get "touched by God" which was incredible, cause people were truly feeling His presence. We witnessed about 5 exorcisms and people were falling after getting prayed at which was terribly scary at the beginning and got me all shaky, but after i got prayed at and touched by God, all fear went away... and I just felt, Safe :| which I still do by the way and that's after 5 hours. It ended at 11:30pm but it feels like it will never end... I found something very precious tonight, I found the true meaning of happiness and internal peace. Some of you might find it funny or dumb, but none of you could understand it the way we did, except if you tried it yourself. Anyway, It's now 4:13am and I'm still waiting for Desperate Housewives episode 8 to buffer completely which is taking hours! To end and make my day... I'm gonna go to bed! xD Goodnight!

~~ Hope

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 16:45:03 GMT

It's been a while since I last wrote knowing things have been a little messy these days. But, I've learned lots of stuff about different things... "We learn from our mistakes" as they say right? Anyway, exams start next week and I just started revising xD well, not that I wanted to but I'm actualy grouded for waking up at 2pm everyday, so I can't get out of the house :] Which means I had to cancel my plans for tomorrow with Vincent which were pretty awesome! Not anymore! xD Instead, I'm gonna be stuck home, looking at my books, trying to figure out what the hell I'm studying in ~~arabic~~ -.- yeah... life's tough =P And to top that, I can't eat neither chocolate nor drink coke and all that because of a stupid medicin I have to take for my ~~spots~~ ( those fuckers xD )
On the bright side, I've finaly got Desperate Housewives season 3 on DVD! xD Oh and I miss my friendsssss !!! loadssss !!! It's been like 5 days since I last saw them O_O
Anyhoo, gotta go back to ~~math~~ ( that fucker xD )

ps: listen to >> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Nre78nFMIo ♥

~~ The End

Wed, 19 Mar 2008 22:21:07 GMT

Have you ever thought that you had found your real friends? have you ever thought you'd be willing to do anything for them? have you ever thought you'd die trying to help them? when one day you realise it was all fake and they never cared? why is it that some people know what real friends are, when some others think everyone just want to be with them, and run after them because they're so cool or popular or even just friendly? The way I see it is that real friends care so much about you they'd do anything for you and never give up on you no matter how long it took or how much they suffered during that time because they truly care about you and about the friendship that ~~holds~~ you together, the kind of friend that won't listen to others when they're told to push other real friends away because of a lame excuse... Friends mean a lot to me... REAL ones... so I try to stick to them, but when it's clear that they don't care, I step aside giving them all they've ever asked for hoping they get the life they always wanted to have: the "Happy Life" watching them getting manipulated by others that take their personalities away, changing them in something they aren't, even if that thing they changed into is a good thing... it will never be Them.
I wish everything could go back to the way it has been, but like I said, it's a "has been" .</3
You will always mean something to me... ~~Goodbye~~.

O_O... 3 days

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 18:39:31 GMT

>> Sheesh! it's been like three days since my last entry! wow... I'm too lazy xD
Anyway had a fun day today, normal yet exciting xD. woke up, took the bus, went to school, had loads of fun... me and my friend sitting next to me, Abbas played hangman, BUT we could only use ~~sex~~ words LOL! so much fun! =P
Anyway, after school, my best friend Shermine & I went to McDonalds, ate, then went to Kaslik to find decent gifts for the two birthday girls Gaelle & Rana... got some cool gifts ///_<
But of course, I can't stand walking around streets filled with shops without Shopping =| so, went in Pull & Bear and Zara picked some shirts, jumpers and an AWESOME black jean, that I'm supposed to go buy tomorrow... why didn't I buy them today you ask ?? well, I won't buy clothes with MY money, DUH! =] ohhh parents! xD
Afterwards, we went to the salon, had my hair cut, came back home, took a shower, got ready, and now I'm waiting for my brother to leave the house and go to the party xD. Gonna have fun for SURE*uww*
Ouf... better run! =D cyaaa!!

~~ Something I wrote ...

Fri, 14 Mar 2008 20:44:08 GMT

Helpless I fight

Like a leader in a war

Most courageous knight

I bleed but want some more

Hard as a rock

I try and break my heart

Opening the door's lock

Releasing the energy of my heart

Haunting my soul

Like a ghost calling for more

Winning is his goal

What is he waiting for ?

Dying from temptation

Keeping on living with it

Filled with emotion

He doesn't give a damn about it

Hurting like hell

Daring to face

His strong and wild yell

Losing in disgrace

When will it stop?

When will it end ?

Why is it so hard

To accept me the way I are ...

~~ Love___

Fri, 14 Mar 2008 17:59:27 GMT

Here's something I wrote two days ago about my ~~feelings~~ towards a special ♥someone♥. xD I still don't know how to confess to her about my feelings, but I'm working on it, Plus, I have all the support I need from my friends. xD so Thanks Guys!! :]

It's the start of a new sensation
The beginning of a new trip
Filled with ~~pleasant~~ emotions
Emptied from depressing moments

Heart shattered and locked ♥
Despite this strong will
Of releasing the tension
Forbidding my soul from life

I struggle, face and fight
This sorrow feeling that might
Burn and take away
My breath and life they say

Why can't you see
What I'm willing to be
Just to be near
Only with no fear
Close to someone
As special as you.

Why can't you understand
When I tell you:
♥ ~~I love you~~ ♥

First Poem Ever :]

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 22:43:54 GMT

Hello there! well I guess you've already figured out that my name is Elie =D so, I'm 15 years old and I live in ~~fucking~~ lebanon which i HATE! :] so anyway, I was ~~FORCED~~ to join livejournal by my friend Louis =P though I wasn't the only one! HA! Anyway, here are some details about me : Hair: Brown, long _ Eyes: Dark brown _ Colors: Purple & Black _ Food: Sweet & Sour _ Interests: Fashion, Design, Music, Acting, Movies ... well, that's pretty much it I guess. =]
Here's the first poem I ever wrote... Enjoy! xD

What ever happened to the day
Where everyone said had come
This day with such importance
Where everyone said had begun

This day that means so much
Was lost in such a rush
I've lost the will to fight
This Strength I held so tight

I keep bleeding inside
Trying to find a way
But nothing in sight
Helps me find this day

This soul that helps me breath
Was taken in a cold breeze
Will I ever find again
The day that has been torn
The day when I was born..